Breather

After two devastating maths papers in a chain of two days.. Finally the stress has taken its toll. I see eye bags when I face the mirror; I saw more pimples; I have halitosis.

I'm taking a short break.

That means more Internet tidbits! Sadly, that's not a good idea because apparently the Internet service provider gave us a really bad stream. Picture this - I tried downloading stuff and the average speed is no more than 6Kbps. Killer.

That also means I can't upload pictures on Blogger. =/

Bah. I should stay focused for the last paper on Monday. After that, semester one ends and I'm free to go home! I missed so many stuffs I can only get in huge cities. So, anyone is going to treat me Carl's Junior when I'm back? =)

The Way

Hah. The first week of battle has just passed. Here, let me recall what I did for the past few days and list it down...

Books.

That's it. Yup. Books. It was just books, papers, and pencils. Spending my days and nights squirming in pages made of pulps isn't exactly a very productive way of studying. Well, this is because I found out after all my brain cells being utterly stressed up, I could not remember a single thing.

Worst yet. I am now having this "I-Don't-Fear-Finals-Anymore" mood. Have no idea how I caught it.. Don't ask me.



You know those people who can eat the entire contents of a text book? They can tell you exactly which page in the book if you throw them an equation..

I'm not that kind of person.


You know those people who doesn't need to study till the last minute they read up a few pages of texts and score A in finals? I'm sure I can do the same. But score a in finals?

I'm not that kind of person.

Finals

So it has begun. For the following two weeks will be the final examination for this semester. A gauge for the level of competency in the subjects I have taken. I certainly hope for the best - I confess I did not prepare well for this test. But hey, at least I did take an effort to read up and work it out.

On the cheerier side, I am coming home on the 11th of November! Can't wait to reunite with my friends and meet up with those I've promised. There are so much to tell and so much to do. This time, It's club crashing and letting loose! I'm expecting nags but who cares right?

Sometimes we just gotta take the first step to break that rule! =)

Can't believe I am able to deprive myself from Dhosai and real Dhal for so long! Mamak session is inevitable lah!

We are family!

The age difference between all of them are maximum 3 years.

Break.

What am I doing all these while? Is everything worth it? Do they pay out as it promise? Now that's the problem I'm thinking about.

Do we always have to expect a return from something we have poured out our efforts?

For me, at least, the efforts you put in for whatever it is, be it assignments and the countless hours in the library, the lame compulsary TITAS subject, hours at night spent in AIESEC meeting room planning for the event, friendships, relationships all brings something.

Perhaps the payback are not materials, what i expect was something better. Experience. For every little things you do, and the effects you see, you learn a lesson. A fragment in your life, slowly one at a time.

Yesterday, a friend of mine told me he was in one of the worst moments in his life and he is about to give up hope for some of his friendships. Ignored the fact that i was involved in managing an event that i am responsible at that time, i felt an urgency to convey a message - to tell him how much he should preserve it and how valuable a good friendship can brings.

I find it ironic. It's ironic because i am also about to give up hope because of my physical condition, my time management, my mental capacity and my emotional preserverance.

Then it is this point i learned that it doesn't matter how many stuffs you do at one time or how complicated your relationships in your life. You have to do it yourself and occasionally a good

friend will give you that word of encouragement and that's all you need.

True friends will never want to see another give up.

So,

Through out the week, i learned something.

It's that i should NOT give up. No matter what.

Void

At times, you cry;
At times, you scream;
At times, you reach out a hand;
At times, you need that loving heart;
At times, you say hello to the dark vacumm.

And you expect a response.

Sorry.
There were no sound,
There were no helping hands,
There was no one.
Not a voice,
Not a sound;
Not a....
Not....
....


Then, you reach out to the last resort.
Sometimes, simply just believing makes Him exist.


This week is going to be a real busy week for me. Am I prepared to face the challenges? AIESEC Seminar, exams, assignments, reports, quizzes all due this week.

My ears and eyes are still opened.
There is still hope.

Love.

Tea leaves and a glass of cocktail.

Yes, as I've mentioned to most of my friends during the gatherings and stuff, I'm going to stop writing two blogs out of the three for good.

Words itelf cannot possibly describe the tsunami of events and feelings that occured to me for the past week. So much I've experienced, heard, shared, seen and remembered. Ya know, now I understand it's not just the friends and chats that makes this holiday complete. It's the whole thing. Subang itself. The people, the drivers, the buildings and stuffs.

So, here's a few things I have done:


- Went climbing Mount Lambak, again. Twice this time to the summit.

- Meet most of my extended family members. My maternal grandma, grandpa, aunties and uncles.

- Dumbfounded by KC's idea - telling me he's leaving Selangor to Sabah for good. (with an apple tree, a ferris wheel and two monkey pets.)

- Played Jin's piano. Hey, at least I remembered a few keys.

- Enjoyed Clo's ride. Again. (hahahahahaha xD)

- Had Japanese buffet with family and almost vomited due to the raw beef stuffings. =/

- Swimming again!

- Excited seeing Jupiter and one of it's moon (Callisto) using my RM80 cheapo telescope.

- Drank cocktail while chatting with my form 6 buddies.

- No need to do laundry.

- No dish washing.

- Ate 90 sticks of Indonesian Satay with only SK and KC.

- Taught the idea of the evolution of the universe since its beginning with SK & KC.

- Seeing KC's moment of epiphany and excitement.

- Had Dosai after 2.5 months deprived from it.

- Drove again.

- Used my house key again. (Finally saw rust on the key. No joking!)

- Shared so many stories I got myself almost dehydrated.

- Drank mommy's healthy fibrous fruit juice EVERYDAY. (no more constipation. Crap almost slips off daily. erk! =.=)

- Got hot shower lor...

- Shared my shoulder for someone in their worst moment and listened to his story attentively.

- Sniffed Calvin's pet dog. Stephie.

- Met up with Alex and Jeev. Plus Mark, Max and Justin!

- Shared so much stories with them in Carl Juniors, Pavillion.

- Face-fed Jeev with brownies. (Happy birthday!)

- Thanks Alex for the awesome brownies!! Taste real good!

- Did a Human Watch in Pavillion.

- Finally knows where the hell is Oblique KL. hehehe. xP

- Kissed my bed.

- Molested my pillow and bolster. xP

- Almost find myself flirting with someone. (fun lah)

- Bitched about lecturers and my dreams.

- Watched a movie that mentally fucked me so hard that I almost cried after watching.

- That is because it's a huge reminder of what happened in my room and two malls almost 3 months ago.


SEE? How can I possibly sit at the sofa in my house with all these happening? But seriously, I haven't sat there like since I left for UTM.

Next time. There is always a next time.


EH! I still got REPORT to do ah!!! OMG I'll tell more about the blog closing stuffs next time.

Till then, Ciao.